God tells us to always be ready to tell another about the hope that is in us. In 1Peter 3:15 God says, “But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear.” That’s what I’m going to try to do with today’s posting.
I have to consider myself lucky because I can’t remember a time when God wasn’t at least a small part of my life. My parents sent me to Sunday school every week, and I attended regularly until I graduated from high school.
After I went off to college, I only went to church when I was home on breaks. In college I took a lot of Religious Studies classes along with my other courses. I actually had enough of an academic background in theology to nearly qualify for a minor in Religious Studies. But despite all the theological and religious book knowledge that I gained during those years, I still didn’t have a real relationship with the LORD.
In college I found a very interesting reformed Christian radio station – and I listened occasionally. What I heard made me think – but it was at odds with most of what I’d heard & learned through all my years of Sunday School, church attendance and college classes. There was something about that radio station that made it different from all the others I’d heard.
After college, I started out on my career. I had a decent job. I got married. I didn’t lie, cheat, steal, smoke, or drink. I was a decent, moral person – or, at least I thought I was. Something was missing from my life – and intellectually I think I knew that what was missing was a relationship with Christ. I watched all the Billy Graham Crusades on TV; even went to one in Washington. Without fail, I’d always pray that “Sinner’s Prayer” — and I genuinely meant it every time! And then without fail, a day or maybe a week later I’d be right back engaged in my old lifestyle.
What about that change? There really wasn’t any difference in my life. I’d be more frustrated than ever that I couldn’t sustain this desire for the Lord. I still didn’t have any sort of real relationship with God. All around me, my life was changing – I now had a daughter and a wife to care for and that cared for me. But within, I still hadn’t undergone any real change. A dozen years ago my family moved to Carroll County and we began attending a local church. We also began regularly listening to another reformed Christian radio station.
Then one day it finally dawned on me what set this reformed station apart from most of the others: everything they tried to say and do at that time was structured around what the BIBLE said. What a concept?! So, I began to really read the Bible to see what “IT” had to say. I knew what my denomination said; I knew what the majority of TV Evangelists and radio stations said. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was listening more to what man was saying than to what God said. Slowly I began to realize that all those years – in church, in Sunday school, in my college religious studies classes — I hadn’t been hearing or understanding the entire message of the Bible.
The portion of the gospel usually presented in most churches – and the only part I heard in all my years in a certain denomination — was about God’s Love. Growing up and in my church I never heard an honest, biblically based account of why I needed a Savior. As I read and listened more to the Bible, a clearer picture came into focus for me of the Bible’s Gospel — not the gospel of a specific denomination, pastor, or radio station – but the Bible’s gospel.
It was then that I came to understand that all those years I was trying to change myself; I was trying to save myself. Now, I didn’t think so at the time! I was absolutely convinced I’d been doing things God’s way. But if God truly is the author and finisher of our faith (as Scripture says) then what can I contribute? God is the One who must circumcise my heart. He’s the One who makes me a new creation. He’s the One who causes me to undergo the Change of rebirth. What can I contribute toward this new birth if it’s truly one from above? Nothing.
The salvation I had been seeking all through my adolescence, teen years, young adulthood and even into middle age was 99% grace, but I still had to do something myself. God’s work wasn’t quite enough. I had to do something. I had to say a certain prayer or make a certain vow before I could then put myself into a position so God could save me. No wonder I’d failed so miserably so many times.
When I realized I wasn’t being faithful to what the Scriptures say, I was stunned. All those years I’d considered myself reasonably well educated — almost had a minor in theology for crying out loud. I went to church – but still I didn’t get it! What a fool I was! The change that only God can bring about, I was trying to bring about on my own.
So I began to check out in the Scriptures what I was hearing from these reformed sources. I came to understand that my lifelong understanding of salvation that I had grown so accustomed to and comfortable with was incorrect. As I delved more and more into what the Bible said, more & more I found I was 100% wrong!
And then you know what happened? God began to open my eyes as I read the Scriptures. Suddenly I had a desire for them I’d never had before. I saw the gospel message of salvation through Christ alone revealed everywhere – not just in the gospels & New Testament. But even in the Old Testament stories about the Flood, Joseph in Egypt, Joshua and Jericho, and even in the story of Jonah and the fish. For the first time in my life a relationship with the Lord began to develop.
I know I’m a filthy sinner. I deserve an eternity in Hell paying for all my sins. What scares me is that my body still lusts after sin. There’s only one thing I’ve earned from God: His judgment for my sins. “For the wages of sin is death” and the death God has in view is spiritual — separation from God. That was the Bible teaches.
My problem was I thought I needed a certain amount of personal desire and willpower before I could become saved; that I had to meet some preconditions in terms of my own will before God could or would change me. It’s only by the grace of God that I now understand this spiritual truth: that whatever desires I may have to know the Lord or to even try to do His will is a byproduct or a consequence of my salvation. It isn’t the cause for it – it’s the result of it.
My free will didn’t bring about The Change. In fact, just the opposite is true: my desire to do the will of God is evidence that I’ve undergone the Change.
By God’s grace and mercy only, today my core set of beliefs is structured around the Bible – alone and in its entirety. Period. Everything I see, hear and read must be weighed against what God says in His Word.
Likewise, everything that shows up on this blog site needs to be weighed against what God says in the Bible. Don’t trust us. Trust only in God.
To God Be The Glory!
Posted by Jeff & Cindy
Posted by Jeff & Cindy